tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38016877.post3933223896715332102..comments2023-10-06T08:28:30.582-07:00Comments on Jimiyo Art & Palaver!: I just grew unsatisfied faster than I had thought.jimiyohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04031590316436194141noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38016877.post-36213070712503149832009-01-30T08:23:00.000-08:002009-01-30T08:23:00.000-08:00ghost4hire: Thanks for the props ghost. I agree wi...ghost4hire: Thanks for the props ghost. I agree with you, as far as happiness. It's too short of life to not pursue happiness...<BR/><BR/>Shana: we talked so you know my answers :D It was so good to see you and Josh. Keep me updated on Josh. <BR/><BR/>eyeslikesugar: :D thanks. yeah, maybe im being naive, but i feel like i should be out there. theres been many things that has happened, that made me come to this conclusion. <BR/><BR/>1. i was doing something that reminded me of being out west, utah speicifically, and i got emotional, had a pang in my heart, like it wanted to be back out there.<BR/><BR/>2. threadless 20K contest. i was thinking, man, if I won 10K, i would use that money to move back out there<BR/><BR/>3. then this job offer pops up a couple weeks later<BR/><BR/>so its like... my heart wanted something, and the door of possibility was opened.<BR/><BR/>ameeeee: <BR/><BR/>What is your definition of happiness? <BR/><BR/>you just know it. just like loving/liking someone. im happy right now, just not happy with where i live, who i live with, etc. everything else is in line... i know i am unhappy here cause usually i start boozing it up and entertaining other vices. <BR/><BR/>i am judgmental, but its also a strength. if i wasnt so harsh, i would not be where and who i am today. <BR/><BR/>endgame:<BR/><BR/>i often feared that i think too much. its my nature to be analytical. <BR/><BR/>regardless of if the job is good for me or not, (although i have confidence that it will be very good for me), i feel like i need to take a chance.<BR/><BR/>people hardly ever take a chance. i havent been scared in a while, and although being scared isnt a fun thing to be, it just means that one is about to be challenged and grow. i like that. i want to take the chance of losing. here, there is less chance of losing.<BR/><BR/>as far as being easily irritated: im pretty patient and giving. there's a point where you have to say, im not going to enable irresponsible behavior by lending money that doesnt get paid back in full, or allowing them to continuously lie over and over to you.<BR/><BR/>i feel fully valid in no longer having patience with my ex roommate and roommate. if i were a business, they would have racked up tremendous late fees and penalties, but since under the false guise of friendship, they seem to take advantage of me that i wont do anything.<BR/><BR/>unfortunately, because they have decided to neglect even basic responsibilities, they have dissolved any sense of friendship we ever had.<BR/><BR/>both have been highly unaccountable and repeatedly misleading to the point where they could be deemed compulsive liars.jimiyohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04031590316436194141noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38016877.post-7421242572417689562009-01-28T16:56:00.000-08:002009-01-28T16:56:00.000-08:00Hey Jimiyo...It looks like we have 2 issues here:1...Hey Jimiyo...It looks like we have 2 issues here:<BR/><BR/>1. Commitment. <BR/>I don’t really think you have a problem with commitment…your art alone demonstrates you ability to commit. Maybe only a problem with thinking before you act. As a result, you do all of your thinking after you have acted. Then you realize you made a bad decision and then you rush to the next act. Much like the dude who breaks up with one chick just to move in with another after knowing her for only 2 weeks. <BR/><BR/>If you have made a mistake or bad decision, then the trick is to not make that same type of mistake ever again. This is how we improve in art, chess and life. Life gives us the same challenges over and over until we solve them. That is why we see the same people make the same mistakes their entire lives. <BR/><BR/>So in your case, is the job offer in California really something that a creative, aggressively independent person like yourself going to be able to hang with? If so, go for it. If not, do not pursue it if you are just doing it to get away from your current unhappiness.<BR/><BR/>2. Your Irritation with Your Surroundings. <BR/>I would suggest that you don’t let other people’s actions affect you so much and so deeply. People who are so easily bothered will never be happy. As an artist (or chess player) we focus on the smallest details…we obsess over it…we see details as the difference between good and bad. But we shouldn’t live the rest of our lives with this kind of scrutiny. The rest of the world is a canvas that you cannot control. If we focus on the imperfect, then that is all we will see.<BR/><BR/>Now that being said, I would have to ask why would you be living near the ghetto? You are an educated, thoughtful, 30+ year old kickass artist. I know that you have enough control to surround yourself with beauty in a less hostile environment. Don’t waste your time on this planet living in a place you do not like. <BR/><BR/>Cheers,<BR/><BR/>John.Xhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05122769206871053366noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38016877.post-44256525718773368652009-01-28T03:43:00.000-08:002009-01-28T03:43:00.000-08:00Hey Jim to the yo..What is your definition of happ...Hey Jim to the yo..<BR/><BR/>What is your definition of happiness? Perhaps your expectations of it need to change. I've come to the conclusion that I'm probably always going to err on the side of melancholy. Maybe you need to accept yourself for who you are, and roll with it.<BR/><BR/>Perhaps you are too judgemental - you're judging them by the measure you use for yourself. Which is pretty fricking high. I myself focus on my hatred of other people and things sometimes to avoid the things I would want to change about myself.<BR/><BR/>Maybe you'd be better off living by yourself - my sister has hardly been here the past month and I have found myself instantly less irritable and increasingly happy. It's only my fault if I didn't do the washing up or if I didn't vacuum. It does get lonely, but it's a lot better to feel lonely by oneself than to feel it in the company of others.<BR/><BR/>You can't change how other people behave, only your reaction. Chances are even if you move, there will be new people to piss you off. Although I'm sure they are infinitely irritating (believe me, I understand)- they're not at all affected by how they make you feel, only you are.<BR/><BR/>Environment plays a big part in happiness, and if getting a regular job affords you to live somewhere that you want to come back to, and feel pride in - then that's worth everything man - it's worth more than money.<BR/><BR/>Also, you have a shirtload of time on your hands to think - and maybe focusing on something else other than yourself will do you some good. I know first hand the anxiety and distress caused by thinking too much. <BR/><BR/>Apologies for my lack of articulation at this hour - but wanted to answer before I got bogged down with work.ABhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15995207696420647025noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38016877.post-15811093552376174482009-01-27T19:12:00.000-08:002009-01-27T19:12:00.000-08:00Good luck on deciding what it is that is best for ...Good luck on deciding what it is that is best for you. I would move to CA in a heartbeat. Depending on salary, location, etc. BUT, I wouldn't want to encourage you to move somewhere where you are even more unhappy. Hopefully, there will be an in-person interview, and then you can see if this is where you belong. :)eyeslikesugarhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03881285415760357940noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38016877.post-5484186417290430992009-01-27T07:34:00.000-08:002009-01-27T07:34:00.000-08:00"The real voyage of discovery consists not in seek..."The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes." <BR/> -- Marcel Proust <BR/><BR/>If you think a change in your environment might shake you out of a funk, then do it with passion. And do it soon. I would only advise that the minutia of daily life is everywhere, there will be things always outside of our control that irritate us to the point of distraction. Mediocrity and apathy are everywhere, you only have control over yourself in how you react to it. <BR/><BR/>You said you have a "disdain for normality, routine and complacency" and these are some of the reasons you decided to freelance. What advantages about working for someone else will make this a better choice? (Just playing devil's advocate here.)<BR/><BR/>You know I could not wait to leave Nashville when the opportunity presented itself, and I was thrilled beyond belief when I could home back as soon as I did. It took being in a different environment for me to appreciate what I had here. Nothing had changed except for me.Shanahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05493085262848387826noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38016877.post-21656899817072196222009-01-27T06:31:00.000-08:002009-01-27T06:31:00.000-08:00Jimiyo, I'm glad to hear that you are going to tak...Jimiyo, I'm glad to hear that you are going to take some action and move out of your current situation regardless of the pending job offer.<BR/><BR/>Your current situation doesn't seem like a healthy environment for anyone whether they have commitment issues or not. I don't personally believe you have an inability to commit as being as creative as you are, you simply require constant stimulus from your environment and positive energy from your surroundings to do what you do.<BR/><BR/>And whatever indecision you have/had about working for someone else is quite understandable. Its hard to imagine how much time you will have to pursue your own interests outside of the 9 to 5 until you are there. Maybe the job will drain you... maybe it will energize you. So hesitation is quite normal. My only advice is to gauge your level of happiness and leave the job the moment you feel it encroaching on your overall goals. <BR/><BR/>In any event, good luck.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38016877.post-4515996634279857192009-01-27T04:41:00.000-08:002009-01-27T04:41:00.000-08:00That really seems like it sucks, man. But I total...That really seems like it sucks, man. But I totally understand how your feeling with questioning your ability to commit and be content when you're surrounded by shit. I deal with the same thing everyday. Good luck getting that position.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com